Holding Back.

I feel like I've cut myself out of some pretty cool things in life. You'd think I'd change... But, I really think I missed out in Norfolk. Granted I miss Norfolk horribly. It was such a good time in my life. But, It could have been so much better. All I needed to do was try to not hold myself back so much. I think people are afraid of getting hurt or rejected by others so they don't put themselves out there. When now that I look back, I just missed out on being friends with some really amazing people. I feel like I knew them... but I could have really enjoyed them. Such a sad scenario. And it's all because I didn't reach out when another did, or try to get myself into their lives. I think most of the time people like friends, so why was I so scared to be one?? I wonder if I should still try, via blogger or facebook to get close to these ladies from Virginia. But, maybe it's too late. I don't know.
So, I remember leaving Virginia and going to Denver and realizing this. Even as I was spending my last days in Virginia I couldn't reach out and become closer, silly me. So I went into Denver thinking, I might have a really great friend here. And I found four. Plus a whole crowd that I'm still getting to know. I was so boosted and uplifted and helped by these wonderful women. Friends are so important and gosh I'm so sad I've missed out. So... As I'm moving into another ward where it would be soooo easy to hide and think "They don't want to be my friend" I'm just going to give it a good head held high and smile.
P.s. if you are one of the ladies I'm talking about I just think ya'll are amazing and I love to learn from you.

Yea!!! It's sunny!!!

I'm so glad it's sunny outside! I just have to write it down. So, we are moving at the end of this week, into a rental. Bit frustrated about that but... it was our decision (I guess) And Lauren and I have felt like crap the past week and a half. Seriously throwing up all night, we take turns Lauren and I, barely able to eat during the day, completely crummy. Lauren's had serious Diarrhea, poor girl. While, those of you who have vacationed with me... know I get a little... backed up. So needless to say we don't pop out of bed like daises and rush to scrub walls and carpets and baseboards and ceilings and organize so when we unpack we don't hate life. Plus it had been so gray the past forever and I just have to thank the sun for showing it's beautiful self today. I honestly feel so much better. Still lightheaded and what not but I might actually be able to do something today, other than watch movies.