A lot of Lasts before A lot of Firsts

Today I am overwhelmed. There is so much to be done before little baby boy comes. But I am also catching myself thinking every time Lauren has a fit, or cuddles or is sleeping or is getting dressed or is brushing her teeth or .... I will have another little body in a month to think about somewhere in this house or in my arms. I also keep thinking oh dear I better get a date in before we never go on dates again.
But...
I also keep dreaming of when I get to hold my little boy for the first time and see his tiny little fingers and toes and eyes and nose! I think about how there is going to be another little one in the car with me when we go places and how it will really feel like a family. I keep thinking of the walks that I'll take with him while lauren rides along on her bike and chats away to me while he smiles or sleeps...

The balance isn't shifting from good to bad... I'm just getting more.

I'm excited!! 17 days!!